I feel icky. I feel bad complaining, but I should get a chance to do that on occassion, right?
I'm so tired. I think the fatigue thing has set in. It probably doesn't help that it's all rainy outside. Yesterday, I went back to bed at 8:00 a.m. (after Eric and Grace left for work) and slept until 10:30 a.m. Then I went to lunch with some work friends and was wiped out. I came home and napped from 2 to 3:30 p.m. and then picked Grace up around 5. I could hardly keep my eyes open until 10 p.m. yesterday. This morning I got up with Grace at 7. My underarm incision is starting to hurt again, so I wonder if I may be overdoing it. I managed to get her fed and ready for daycare before going back to bed. I got up at 10 and have been just sitting on the couch for the last hour. I don't even know what to do. Everything seems like it would take too much energy. I've got an appointment with Dr. L this afternoon, we'll see what she says about my stitches. Tomorrow morning I have a CBC, I wouldn't be surprised if my white counts have dropped a bit. Maybe that would explain why I'm so wiped out. My throat was a little sore this morning too.
Seems like I should have had a purpose to this post other than to complain, but I can't seem to find it. I don't even have pictures to post. Eric took the camera to work, so I'll have to wait until later to post Grace's Halloween pictures. Well, I'm going to try to find something fairly productive to do that doesn't take too much energy. Can't believe I might go back to work this week. At least I'd feel like less of a bum, but I'm not sure how I'll do without the naps.
I'll try to find something better to post about later. I'm sure I'll pull out of this funk.
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The day-to-day life of a mother, wife, daughter, sister, friend, student, and cancer survivor. This is the journey through my life.
About Me
- Jennifer
- My name is Jennifer. I became a daughter 29 years ago and a wife 7 years ago. In June 2003, Eric and I decided that we would like to become parents. Shortly thereafter, we were pregnant. Eight weeks later, I began this blog to help my family and friends keep up with my pregnancy. Unfortunately, that pregnancy was only with me for two more weeks before I was diagnosed with a "missed miscarriage." In November 2003 we decided to try again. We were eventually successful. Grace was born December 12, 2004 and I became a mother. September 23, 2005 I was diagnosed with breast cancer and decided this blog was a good place to write about that fight too. Sitting here three years later, I can call myself a survivor. After 2 years of being cancer free we were blessed with another pregnancy. Our son Luke was born on May 7, 2008 and I again became a mother. I hope others enjoy reading, but this blog is for me. I never know what I will become next, but I know it will be a journey. And whatever I become, I will wear it like a badge of honor.
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Pregnancy #1 & #2 Stats
- Date Birth Control Stopped - 6/15/03
- First Positive HPT - 8/22/03
- First Due Date - April 17, 2004
- Date miscarriage confirmed - 9/26/03
- D&C Performed - 10/3/03
- Date Trying began again - 11/3/03
- Positive HPT - 4/9/04
- Due Date - 12/17/04
- First Dr. Appt. - 5/06/04-U/S only
- Heartbeat Heard - 5/26/04 -10w4d
- It's a Girl! - 7/29/04
- 12/09/04 (38w5d) - 3 cm, 90% eff., -2 station
- Grace's Birthday - 12/12/04
Pregnancy #3 Stats
- IUD Removed - 8/1/07
- Positive HPT - 9/15/07
- Due Date - May 22, 2007
- Ultrasound (6w) - saw heartbeat - 9/27/07
- First Dr. Appt. - 10/17/07
- It's a Boy - 12/13/08
- Luke's Birthday - May 7, 2008
Grace Stats
- Birth Day - 12/12/04
- Birth Weight & Length - 8 pounds 11 ounces, 21 inches
- Discharge Weight - 8 pounds 3 ounces
- 1 week 1 day Weight - 8 pounds ? onces
- 2 week 1 day Weight - 9 pounds 1 ounce
- 4 week 1 day Weight - 10 pounds 7 ounces
- 9 week 1 day Weight (2 months) - 12 pounds 10 ounces
- 4 months - 15 pounds 13 ounces
- 6 months - 18 pounds 3 ounces
- 9 months - 20 pounds 3 ounces
- 12 months - 21 pounds 12 ounces
- 15 1/2 months - 25 pounds 7 ounces
- 2 years - 34 pounds - 33 3/4"
- 3 years - 37 1/2 pounds - 37 1/4"
- 4 years - 50 pounds - 42 "
Luke Stats
- Birth Day - 5/7/08
- Birth Weight & Length - 10 pounds 8 ounces, 22 inches
- Discharge Weight - 9 pounds 15 ounces
- 1 week Weight - 9 pounds 12 onces
- 2 week Weight - 10 pounds 5 ounces
- 1 Month - 12 pounds 12 ounces, 22 1/2"
- 2 Months - 15 pounds 8 ounces, 23"
- 4 Months - 18 pounds 12 ounces, 26"
- 6 Months - 21 pounds, 8 ounces, 27"
Cancer Stats
- First Dr. Appt. - 8/18/05
- Ultrasound - 8/25/05 - Questionable
- FNA - 8/30/05 - "Benign"
- Excisional Biopsy - 9/21/05
- Diagnosis - 9/23/05
- - Stage I Cancer
- - Invasive Ductal Carcinoma Rt. Breast
- - 1.6 cm (3 mm margins)
- - Nuclear Grade 3 (score of 9 Nottingham scale)
- - Estrogen Receptors - "Focally weakly positive"
- - Progesterone Receptors - Negative
- - HER2 neu - Positive
- Breast MRI - 9/23/05 - Clear
- Mammogram - 9/27/05 - Clear
- CT Scan - 10/4/05 - Small Calcification Rt. Lung
- Bone Scan - 10/4/05 - Clear
- Brain MRI - 10/11/05 - Clear
- MUGA Scan - 10/11/05 - Normal 71%
- Sentinal Lymph Node Mapping - 10/12/05- 5 nodes removed - clear
- Chemotherapy Begins - 10/27/05
- Losing my Hair - 11/9/05
- Start Herceptin Treatment - 12/05
- Mammogram - 1/4/06 - Clear
- Chemo Finished! - 2/10/06
- Chest CT - 2/22/06 - No change-stable
- Radiation Begins - 2/23/06
- Start Tamoxifen - 5/06
- BRAC Genetic Testing - 06/06 - Negative
- Core-Needle Biopsy (scar tissue) - 07/06 - Clear
- Mammogram - 07/06
- CT Scan - 7/14/06 - Clear
- Herceptin Complete - 12/6/06
- Mammogram - 01/07 - Clear
- CT Scan - 02/07 - Large cyst Rt. ovary
- Port Removal - 2/21/07
- Cyst and Rt. Ovary Removed - 4/07 - Benign
- End Tamoxifen - 7/07
- Breast MRI - 08/07 - Clear
- Mammogram - 08/07 - Clear
- Chest X-Ray - 08/07 - Clear
- Ultrasound - 04/08 - Clear
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3 comments:
Don't feel bad complaining. You have every right to be tired and take naps! You have been through a lot already. Take advantage. I'd love to be able to take naps during the day. :D
I agree. It isn't complaining. The doctor told you that it would last through Tuesday of the following week, so take some comfort and just focus on getting through this. Yes, I desparately want to see what Grace looked like in her costume, but sometimes you gotta post and rant a bit, right?
Let us know what the doctor says.
xoxo-Kitten
If you found out your blood counts came back low, that'll account for a lot. You'll be amazed at how much better you'll feel if you get a transfusion. Don't forget that chemo is still swimming around killing all kinds of cells to make sure all the cancer is gone. That's hard work, no wonder you're tired! Don't feel bad about getting rest, your body is at war and it gets tired.
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